A Post A Day (1/1/2014)

Hi everybody,
It has been a long time since i write anything. But this year i want to make something crazy. I want to post something here daily. This will be my new diary. A place for me to pour everything in my heart. Talk about being gay right. But i think this might be good for me. I have thoughts and ideas that were left unattended. So maybe by writing daily i can probably let it all out.

For the first day of 2014, i thought i'll talk about my new year resolutions. Last year resolution did not go so well.
i) i did not get any 4.00 GPA last year on my two semester.
ii) i did not manage to lose weight till 60 kg last year dispite my cycling.
iii) i had a terrible a break up with my ex-girlfriend, Illani Ramlee
iv) i'm still a nobody in UiTM Perlis.

As you can see, i cant say that 2013 have been great for me. But my academic has been good for me, althought i believe i can do more. Maybe i was too happy with being in love, i feel like i can do anything when i set those goals. Damn, what a mistake. I wont make that same mistake.

Therefore, this year i think i might keep only one resolution from last year. Here are my new year resolutions:
i) I want to keep my dream to get a 4.0 GPA. I know i can do it. And i believe i can do it. Pray for me. I can handle physics.
ii) I want to be better.

Haha. Such original idea right. "Be better" only. Like u never heard that one before right. But i'm serious. I dont want to put to much pressure on my shoulder by putting too many resolutions. So i will only want to get a 4 flat. That's all. I know i can do many more things but this one is the only thing i care about. Being the best boyfreind and all that means nothing to me. But showing i can hit a 4.0, i can show the world i'm not an idiot.

That's all for now. I'll get back to you guys again tomorrow.

Hello New Year 2013

Assalamualaikum everyone,
How was your new year? i know i'm a little late (5 days late). i hope you dont have too much fun, it is just a change of date. Anyway, my last post was about my 2012 in review. So today, i would like to write about my new year resolutions. I do believe that New Year is just a change of date, but if you are going to start changing yourself to the better, 1st January sounds like a fun date for you to start your first step. People says the hardest part in changes is the first step. Thus, new year resolutions help those people who really had a hard time taking the first step. and i'm not proud to say that i am definitely one those people who's leg are so heavy that taking the first step is near impossible. but taking a new motto in life (borrowing from Adidas old motto) "Impossible is nothing", i want to try to take a step on achieving some new year resolutions.

So here's my new year resolution (Seriously want to achieve part):

1. Scoring a 4.00 GPA in one of my semesters or both this year.
Yes, you read right. I'm going for 4.0 GPA this year. I'm not the smartest person not even my family (I had always sees my brother to be smarter than I am) nor in this university. but last semester i manage to hit 3.8 and there is no going down anymore. i want more. so and unrealistic goal of 4.0 is set. wish me luck and please pray for me. i need as much help as i can get. (But you are in UiTM, how hard can that be. hahaha)

2. Lower my weight to 60 kg 
This has been in the resolution books for years now. the last time i'm that light is i think in form 4 i guess. haha. yes i am a fat kid. i am still a fat man now. but since i manage to lose 20 kg in 4 months or something, i thought this goal is not that hard. quite possible and maybe can be easy. (such a naive kid.) but nevertheless, i'll try my best to achieve this. this goal doesn't mean i want to get ripped. seriously i dont want to have that The Rock body or something. i just want to lose weight. (you sound like a girl) but hey, if getting ripped makes me lose weight, why the hell not right.

3. Get licenses!!!
this one is a very important goals. and i am ashamed of it. i cant be that boyfriend who had to ask their girlfriend to drive them around. that is embarrassing. i did it back when i was with Nadrah Jaafar. and it sucks! thus i need a license. at least motorcycle to go around Perlis.

So now here is some of my less important resolutions.

4. Learn to invest and invest.
why you ask? i am 23 years old and gonna graduate when i'm 25 years old. lets be honest 25 years old is pretty old. i need to have my life figure out during this learning experience. by the time i graduate at least i can make some money. most probably for a home, a car and most definitely to get myself a freaking wife. like seriously i'm very jealous of friends getting married left and right. dont comfort me saying why worry about that. getting married is a very good thing. it shows you are grown up. so by 25 or 26, i want a family. i'm serious.

5. Get Master in Starcraft 2: Heart of the Swarm
I've already promise myself to buy the expansion for Starcraft 2: Wings of Liberty. and once i got to play that, i will train to get to Master. i still love Starcraft 2. I wish i could play it right now. but unfortunately my internet is not that fast to play it very beautifully. i missed it so much. but i will get better at it.

6. Try to get some important work in UiTM
Well, i would like to end my years in UiTM as some what of an extraordinary students. i might end these dreaded 3 years with an above 3.00 CGPA but i would like to end it with an ANC. But ANC is less impressive if you are just a student who study a lot. i would like to step up my game maybe by trying club or anything.

7. Do photography again.
I have been leaving photography for quite a long time now. my baby (Canon EOS 50D) right now is probably being used recklessly by my brothers. it makes me sad. so this year, i would like to start again. probably buy some new gears for the camera. maybe a long awaited super-zoom lens. or maybe a new body. or even buy myself a compact camera and do photography by using a small camera. Photography isn't limited to only DSLR right.

8. Buy a new laptop.
Since there are now Windows 8 and my laptop cant run it probably, i would like a new laptop. haha.

9. Be the best boyfriend ever.
This will only benefit me and my gf. haha. but it would be a good goal. maybe i can be better by being a husband. (i really would love to start a family right now)

10. Write more.
This would be the best way to end this post. I would like to write more. i'm happy now, so i would like to write more with more happy thoughts. plus i need a medium to practice my broken English. because in UiTM you'll only practice broken Bahasa Malaysia. thus, hopefully 2013 would have a lot more posts in this blog.

That's all for me now. What's your biggest resolution this year? remember, setting goals for yourself is the first step for success. like they said "Fail to plan, you are planning to fail."

See you guys again!

Assalamualaikum.

Bye Bye 2012

hello everyone,
it is the end of year 2012. and unlike the past 2 years, this year has been nice to me. if anyone follow my past post, they'll know how i dug my own grave and do a somersault into it. i literally did that. but this year, it is different. 2012 has been very kind to me. there hasn't been so many heartache this year and there's been a lot of "hold your chin high" moment for me.

first of all, the most memorable moment this year would be my getting in UiTM. well, UiTM is pretty easy to get in. but the fact that i said "fuck it, i had enough sobbing" and get myself to get to UiTM after 6 months of "finding myself" was a big deal for me. i had friends who unfortunately had the same fate as me and they told their stories. there are goes to deep depression, there's guy that waited a year to get back on his feet and there's even one who needed professional help. i was lucky i don't need all that and all i need was 6 months with my family. so although getting in UiTM was not a big deal at all, but finding the courage to move on, to rise was a big deal.

second, my first dean list!! yes, this year i manage to insert myself into the dean list. yes, i know half of my readers actually a regular in that list but this year is my year. haha. but seriously, after my fall, i start to doubt my brain, like i start to think i'm dumb. like seriously i thought i was dumb. and everything leading to Canada was a series of fortunate event. but the dean list actually reassured me that i'm pretty smart. i do realize i sound like i'm committing one of the 7 deadly sin, "pride". but i dont care, i was so down this moral victory is what i need. so, i'm very glad that i'm not dumb, or at least not yet. hehe.

third, i have to say a new girlfriend. yes, i'm not at all ashamed to say that i have a new girlfriend. i have to say that it is a win because i just could use one. i have always been  a close book. ask my mom. she knows about my failure a month before i got back. i'm sorry umi. but a girlfriend is the only one person i think i can be a little open. they can say friends or bestfriend but i have major trust issue that i just cant trust anyone. so a girlfriend is really helpful. i think i mention somewhere i did have a girlfriend before but ended just before i left Canada. but in 2012, that spot been filled again. although it was from the end of October 2012 officially, it still count. just shows that i'm still lovable.

so far i talk about the ups, and for the down, there isn't much, like seriously. i think there has been much things that disappoint me in 2012. the worst thing to happen is probably MARA rejecting me from continuing their scholarship. those lovely people said they to sponsor IPTA. it sucks!! but i still manage to get JPA even though those bastard hasn't given me my money, i'm still happy about it. and i also got rejected by a friend. but it doesn't hurt that much because it is my second time asking. so no hard feeling. i also gain like 20 kg the beginning of 2012 but lost it in the middle of 2012. so not worth mentioning.

i guess that's my life in review for 2012. full of ups. very little downs. i'm very happy with 2012 after the couple of years i have in 2010 and 2011. it is a new start for me. a start for greatness ahead. i'm looking forward for 2013 as i ready myself to be awesome. therefore, bye bye 2012. hope to see you again once i created time-travelling. (i know it is impossible, dont burn me).

i would like to add my latest picture but this is the only one. meet Illani. :) 

Alhamdulillah

hello everyone,
it has been a while right? i just want to update a little about me. i'm doing just fine right now here at UiTM Arau, Perlis. Yes, it does sucks being at what i can best describe as a "university highschool" (it really do feel like being back in high school.) but it suck less because my GPA was something i can be proud of in quite sometimes (3.83) and i lost 20 kg since March 2012. so proud of myself. i know it is not good to be proud of thyself, but give me a break after 2 years being lost. also, i found myself a beautiful girlfriend to help me keep my cool and motivate me. i know a lot of people says that a gf would not help. but i think it help me a little. i'll talk about her later. ok, i think i have nothing more to say here.

i'll get back to you guys later. :)

p/s: here's my last sem GPA. Alhamdulillah.

NO.	COURSES	GRADE	RESULT
1.	BEL462 - READING AND CRITICAL THINKING ( 2.0 )	A-	LU
2.	CHM420 - GENERAL CHEMISTRY ( 4.0 )	A-	LU
3.	CSC425 - INTRODUCTION TO COMPUTER PROGRAMMING ( 3.0 )	A+	LU
4.	CTU551 - ISLAM AND ASIAN CIVILIZATION ( 2.0 )	B+	LU
5.	HBU111 - NATIONAL KESATRIA I ( 1.0 )	A	LU
6.	MAT421 - CALCULUS I ( 3.0 )	A	LU
7.	PHY430 - PHYSICS I ( 4.0 )	A	LU

New Life

hello everyone,
i know. my name is Syazli if anybody already forget that. haha. yes, it has been so long since i wrote anything here. it because i was busy, i just don't know what to write anymore. nothing cool happen in my life. but i can confirm you that a lot has changed. for once, my university. for those who doesn't know, i studied at UiTM Arau, Perlis now. i'm studying physics now. yes, PHYSICS. i failed Engineering PHYSICS, wonder what gonna happen with physics. haha. dont worry, i'm a lil bit more focus now. back then, i got distracted too much. plus, engineering sucks so much. yes, engineering students who still think i'm your friend, i think ENGINEERING SUCKS!!!! said the guy who took a course that is 50% engineering made of and probably end up working in that area too. haha. but life is pretty good.

okay, that is for now. just want to post something since i like writing shit when i have the mood to write. when i dont have any determination to write. this kind of post created. good night people.

p/s: The Dark Knight Rises is NOW!!!! i need a date to take to watch it or someone.

look!!! That's ME!!!

Look man!! MY sucky room!!!